Friday, October 7, 2011

Jamison Sean Tuckett

Today would be your 16th birthday!!!

It seems like you were always full of smiles and MISCHIEF as a kid!!!!

I came across this picture recently and smiled and laughed. Some things never change....and I hope they never do. Grandpa feeding the grandkids things he shouldn't, Aitanna always eating sweets, and you... "playing with fire." How in the world did you get a box of matches anyway??? Wait...that's probably a dumb question to ask!! :)

Two chubby boys in the tub!! Grandpa would be so embarrassed...but I don't care. I love this picture of these two amazing guys in my life.
Your appearance in the world meant that Contessa was no longer the only grand child.
But she didn't seem to mind too much!!!
Uncle Joe always had a special connection to you.
Your daddy was and is so proud of you and loves you so much!!!!
Grandpa Duane LOVES his grand kids!! And Raleigh sure loves her big brother.
Happy Birthday Jami!!! I hope Natasha is with you right now celebrating yet another birthday with you.
Like I said before....your daddy has always been so proud of you. Just look at the look on his face.

It's hard to believe that you're not with us anymore.
I'm grateful for the knowledge that I have of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. It makes losing you not nearly as painful. It's a comfort knowing that you'll be waiting there for each of us when we return to our Heavenly home.
Where I have the most regret is for the past 8 years I've lived so far away. I feel like I missed out on alot. It was fun for me to read the updates your mom put on her blog. It made me feel like I knew what was going on in your life. Still....I felt like I didn't really get a chance to KNOW you.

It really hurts to know that on my most recent trip to Utah, the FIRST time I got to see you was when you were lying in that hospital. I didn't get to hug you one last time. I didn't get to laugh with you and tease you one last time. Or better yet...YOU tease ME one last time. I hate myself for that.
I loved the times when I came home to Utah to visit and you ALWAYS seemed so happy to see me. It meant so much because I felt like I didn't know you as well as I would've liked. But you made ME feel IMPORTANT!!! I always thought it odd that a teenager would sit and visit with his aunt who lived 1200 miles away. Most teenagers are more interested in their video games and ipods and could careless about the annoying adults that were around.

You were so different!!

Recently, I called home at Christmas to say hello. The phone was passed around from my mom, to my dad, and then to my siblings. Then I was told that you wanted to talk to me on the phone. I was shocked. Really???? A fifteen year old wants to talk to his aunt on the phone?? It was so fun to listen to the excitement in your voice as you asked me if I saw your pictures and videos on Facebook. You wanted to MAKE SURE I saw a picture of the long board you had made in shop. You were so sweet to me.
When I would visit Utah, not only would you tease Kashton...but it was clear that you LOVED him. You were so good to him. I'm SO glad that even though he's only 4, he remembers you. I will try hard to never let him forget. It makes me happy to think that hopefully your playing with my little daughter right now. Taking care of her for me until she's able to be in my own arms. Maybe telling her about all the fun she's going to have. Maybe telling her to give your mom and dad a hug from you. I like to think that anyway!!!
I want you to know how much I love you and miss you!!!

Happy 16th Birthday!!!


Trustmark said...

I just joined bogger for my business and personal interest and I ran accross your blog and this post. My heart was touched and your words and experience blew me away. I was touched greatly and encourage you to keep honoring, blogging and remembering.

Thank you!

Littletime said...

What a beautiful post about Jamie, I missed his funeral, so it made me happy to see some of the picture, I miss him also especially at the reunion that seems to be the place we connected.